Accidently Planning a Roller Coaster Ride

I was prepared to tell you all how very disappointed I was that I would not be studying abroad. Since my last post, I have been on a roller coaster ride. First I was going to Australia, then not, then going, then not, and now finally I am going. It is official (plane ticket and all). I couldn't be happier, though it wasn't always like this. Studying abroad was an important thing for me to do. I was planing to go for an entire year and believing I was not going to go broke my heart every time. I always thought I would never be able to go because I knew for a fact that I did not have the money for what i was dreaming of and trying to accomplish. I remember this past Christmas ( which was the worst) when my mother gave me one of my Christmas gifts, I cried. You know what it was? It was a passport cover for my passport for my studying abroad trip. Such a simple gift made me cry and I cried because I had lost faith in myself and all the people around me. I thought I would not be able to go, but I was wrong, though at the moment I was right. I am only able to study abroad because of certain people around me. They helped me achieve what I failed to do, because I did not plan right. You see planning is the key to success and that is exactly what I did not do right (in the money aspect). Also, enlisting the help of other people in my life was very important and beneficial for my studying abroad journey. Mainly this roller coaster ride was a product of poor money preparation. I thought I had planned enough money for me to be able to go to Australia and the truth is I didn't. It is also hard to plan when you have people who swear they are going to help but really don't (story of my life . . .), then contact you after the deadline to see how things are going. I am proud to say that another person stepped in to help. Liz I must say I am forever grateful to you and the potential you see in me. I love how you took a risk and placed your faith in me. I promise I will not let you down. I was made for this study abroad trip! People, from this post I don't won't you all to realize my emotionally roller coaster (happy, angry, disappointed, sad)and indecisiveness, instead I want you all to realize that planning and preparation means a lot, but not only in studying abroad. Remember have a plan for yourself in everything that you do ( with an alternative one too), but don't set the bar too high.